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Friday
Jul312009

On Blurring

You should be cautious about knowing who I am. It irks me. To be known. It's fucking impolite. To think you know someone. As if a someone is just so. "I know you!" Oh do you now? How about now?

You should be wary of names and photographs. They are liars. They freeze what wants to melt.

I have stared long into mirrors. I don't know me. Why should you? I don't pound out letters to find myself. Let's burn that fucker down. I am not some butterfly pinned to a science project.

How do you get from moment to moment? Focus now. Shit. You missed it. You have to watch. Have you ever watched yourself from here to there? Focus hard enough and things get blurry.

A self is a product of blurred distinctions. But what of that blur? That's where it's at. You think you're some thing but you're not. You're a bomb.

Relax. I will lighten up. There will be more jokes. Laughter is the best kind of melting.

Reader Comments (30)

New URL. Same shit. Bring it, Word Man.

July 31, 2009 at 12:49 PM | Unregistered CommenterNever Abroad or Hip

This makes me so happy, brother.

August 1, 2009 at 10:32 AM | Unregistered CommenterSweetney

What you said.

August 3, 2009 at 1:40 AM | Unregistered CommenterWhit

You get an Amen.

August 3, 2009 at 1:54 AM | Unregistered Commentercalifmom

No matter how many times you have to molt in flames, you will keep spewing truth and people will keep listening, it doesn't matter who you are or were or will be. You are a vehicle for truth. And dick jokes. Not sure which is more significant.

August 3, 2009 at 2:18 AM | Unregistered CommenterLiteralDan

Blurry is as blurry does.

August 3, 2009 at 4:44 AM | Unregistered CommenterTwoBusy

I'm here for the dick jokes AND the truth. Welcome back.

August 3, 2009 at 4:56 AM | Unregistered Commentermiddle-aged-woman

I'm here for "you"....

August 3, 2009 at 6:04 AM | Unregistered CommenterMom

I'm sorry...I lost focus somewhere in the middle....

August 3, 2009 at 7:55 AM | Unregistered CommenterVDog

i don't pretend to know you, only that i know i haven't enjoyed reading anything as much as what you've given me in a long time.

August 3, 2009 at 8:26 AM | Unregistered Commentermommymae

No, I don't know you. I've heard of you. I've read the words you've thrown out to the internet like a master trowing scraps of meat to a pack of dogs.. But I don't know you any more than you know me.. Like when we met in that room at the conference and were introduced and you said 'Ooohhhh...' as if to say 'yeah, I know who you are'.. But I knew that in your head, you were really thinking 'I have no idea who you are.'

And that's just fine with me.

I enjoy the anonymity.

Welcome back BHJ.

August 3, 2009 at 9:36 AM | Unregistered Commenterchurchpunkmom

All of a sudden I know your FB name...however I do not know you and I enjoy adding confusion to my already confused day. Whatever. You are now a friend. Amazing.

August 3, 2009 at 9:49 AM | Unregistered CommenterDebbie

I have a question reserved for really brilliant people: how did you happen? And I never want an answer.

"You should be wary of names and photographs. They are liars. They freeze what wants to melt," made me want to put down forever the camera I'm obsessed with - for a tenth of a second. I know I"ll never forget that line though.

August 3, 2009 at 11:22 AM | Unregistered CommenterLaurie

Whoops! Just melted. Getting harder to typpppllllllllllllll............

August 3, 2009 at 11:40 AM | Unregistered CommenterCoal Miner's Granddaughter

Whoever you are, I'm glad you're back.

August 3, 2009 at 3:30 PM | Unregistered CommenterRedW

Pictures take one's soul. Peyote is nice, though. And finally, Vincent's head is probably melting as it slowly rots in this ridiculous heat.

August 3, 2009 at 5:18 PM | Unregistered Commentermuskrat

Normally lurking.

Commenting to say WHOOOT THE FOOOOOK??

Welcome back, yo.

August 3, 2009 at 5:27 PM | Unregistered CommenterThe New Girl

I missed you - welcome back.

Shade and Sweetwater,
K

August 3, 2009 at 5:47 PM | Unregistered CommenterKyddryn

Welcome back, sir.

August 3, 2009 at 6:15 PM | Unregistered CommenterMaria

Welcome back!!

August 3, 2009 at 8:28 PM | Unregistered CommenterSunny

Oh, thank J!

August 4, 2009 at 10:54 PM | Unregistered CommenterLos Francos

Oh, thank the gods!!!

August 5, 2009 at 2:02 PM | Unregistered Commenterladyeunicorn

thank the jeebus, you're back.

August 5, 2009 at 2:35 PM | Unregistered CommenterAlicia

I'm glad to see you rebuilding.

August 7, 2009 at 9:13 AM | Unregistered CommenterMiss Grace

all is right with the world. welcome back.

August 8, 2009 at 1:35 PM | Unregistered CommenterErin

Like I said on FB....Welcome back Lazarus. Glad you're back.

August 9, 2009 at 9:52 AM | Unregistered CommenterAudrey at Barking Mad

I found you.

And I'm happy.

August 10, 2009 at 12:33 PM | Unregistered CommenterHEF

and so he rises.

August 11, 2009 at 12:46 PM | Unregistered Commenterjenni

What an awesome dude. Your pal, Kayle from Cockeysville, Maryland

August 11, 2009 at 5:35 PM | Unregistered CommenterKayle

Glad You are back. I have missed "you"

August 14, 2009 at 5:57 PM | Unregistered CommenterLibraryGirl62

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